Deep Deep Shivers... a Cry of My Soul...Really!

I have been in deep prayer about this moment and where God will guide me with this. But I  had to put it into this form so my mind could be at ease and I could rest a little more...

The warm smell of an autumnal drink

Wafted through the air, ginger and spice,

The leaves danced in the windows light

Joyfully playing with the breeze

Above the glaring screen of my notebook,

Sat a gentle spirit, her eyes glimmering peace

her gentle oasis blues concentrating on her notes

Her delicate smile brought shivers to my soul

She caught my stare, and smiled

I smiled a bashful smile back

We playfully returned facial mien

And she let a gentle giggle release

I looked down still smiling

Thinking of her angelic voice

Listening to her joy filled laughter

Her prayerful heart uttered harmony

I prayed and prayed, as my heart stirred

I waited and supplicated with the Father

Impatient and thankful, what to do

How to initiate, Lord guide me, I beg

Lord grant me the perfect moment

Grant me the meet cute, your purpose

For my heart screams for this

My soul says so be it. So be it!

Now for the timing to be right

For the perfect voicing, of why

my heart and mouth in union

Lord guide my next move. 

why I write

I felt encouraged to write the other day, as I had not written for a little while. So I thought I would write about why I write.

Sometimes when the day does not make sense

And time has passed by without notice

I find I have missed out on something of importance

An important headline of the days happenings,

A good conversation with a long standing friend.

Sometimes even a telephone call with a distant companion,

So now I write things down, I write things down so I notice more,

Like how a person motions when they are passionately speaking

Or how a red and orange leaf falls ever softer through the wind

Settling peacefully to the ground. Or sometimes I now notice

The people passing by some with face of focus and others

Others looking for a wonder why, while seeking answers in the hosts above

Other times I like to step out of the mayhem and thank the Lord he made it all.

I find as I write that my hidden expressions become a reality on a page

That I can share with people that which I hid so well

I write to let people know what is happening in the life of me, behind the Grecian mask.

I write so my heart can speak what my mouth cannot. That is most important of all.

At Thy Feet

Inadequate I came before your throne

Ashamed to bring my face into your light

Legs trembling, throat dry, back arched

Brow shadowed eyes, open only slight.

Edging forward, ever slower goes the pace

Every heart beat a war hammer against my chest

“You’re not worthy” whispers the deceiver’s voice

I answer, “I know I am not the best”

Thoughts engulfed in me, myself and I

A warm, comforting grasp upon my shoulder

I ever slowly lift my shadowed face

The burden borne large like a boulder

Unworthy and quivering still

The grasp encourages me to look

Now kneeling, I lift my eyes into light

I know only of Him from His Book.

He beckons me to stand, I cannot

He calls me to stand, quaking I arise.

Heartfelt warmth surrounds me

As I gaze into The Potters eyes.

I ask Him to take my heart, and do His work

I hand my heart over to Him, with fear

I ask Him to change me, mold me.

It won’t be easy, but He is near.

He begins to peel back the layers

Helplessness takes hold of my mind

Strength sapped from my very being

The boulder He was meant to find

The weight is lifted and disposed of

I fall to my knees again, willingly

I worship His name, and praise Him

A rarity as tears fall abundantly

My all, my everything, less of me.

My mind says more of you,

My strength, really His, my hope.

And now I can start anew.

I thank the Lord morning, noon and night,

I praise the Lord for revealing me to me

I live my days now under His wing

I was blind but now I see

Father use me, all of me

a fire burning bright

a joyful breath, and heartbeat

my goal, Jesus is in my sight.

the Joy of my heart, forever...